a tale from satan

everybody have their past
same as satan...
y satan became a satan?
because she think that she had no future
because she sick and tired of her unfortunately life
life is so miserable for her
for a long long period she even forgot how to smile
she forgot how to smile from her heart
but she learn another thing
cry...
but satan had her pride
she wont cry in front of people
she told herself a thousand times she wont do that
she told herself to be strong
but again and again she fell
again and again her heart broken into pieces
again and again she tried to complete the puzzle of her broken heart to be in one piece again
suddenly the world is black and white to her
there's no more colour left for her in this world
she lost her best friend and her lover in a car accident 10 years ago
she lost her beloved grandma at her own 16th birthday
she lost her best friend 3 years ago becoz of lung cancer
again she lost her grandpa at her 19th birthday
in year 2006, she lost herself...
she lost her one and only ability... the ability to sing...
finally, she got nothing to lose anymore
sometimes, she thought her appearance will bring bad luck for her friends and family
who ever close to her will have bad luck
some of her friend lost their relatives after be close friend to satan
she try to avoid her bad faith
by throwing herself to a far place from home to sudy
she thought with a new enviroment
she can start her new life
but she was wrong
her bad faith doesnt end there
it kept following her
though it's happening
she didnt give up
she still hope for a new world and a brand new day
she didnt notice this hope is too naive
it's like the little mermaid hope her prince to love her although she cant speak
but in the end her hope change to bubbles when her prince married another princess
did satan have her faith?
she didnt know, coz the little mermaid didnt live to tell her tale after she turn into bubbles and dissapear in this world
dissapointed with her life and faith
she didnt know where to go
finally, she saw a dim light in her future
she found her interest course to study
at least, a thing to keep her going with her life
but there comes a major problem in her family
economic crisis
plus, her mother dun agree to let her study that course
she wants her to continue with the course she had force herself to study for 2 years
satan had no choice
she was confused and scare
she scare and worry about his father
she was angry with her mother's attitude
she was worry about her little bro coz his getting grumpy day by day because of the family economic crisis
then she exchange a condition with her mother
she will support herself
then, she start to work like hell everyday and study at the same time
everynight she work till 4 in the morning
and wake up at 9 to go to class
but satan forget she had a weakness
she's sick...
and the end, she been threat like a pig by his boss
even though she tried so hard to help his boss to gain his business
but the boss didnt even care, never bother, a cold blooded man!
even her "best friend", left her behind
coz she's weak
n her new lover also left her bcoz she's sick
"is it my fault to blame at when i'm sick?"
satan often question herself
she had no choice she have no extra money to buy anything except her bread and rice
sometimes she only can save a little bit money to buy the book she love to read
that's the only thing she can afford
what's left of her anyway?
satan ain't got anything to lose anymore
so she decide to become a satan
she burn all her memories down
sign an eternal agreement with the underworld
work for them for eternity, suck out the miserable human soul everynite
nobody playng her world except herself
her world only play by her own rule
haha~ what do i gotta lose anyway~ what do i left to lose? what do i got to lose?
u're reading a tale...
a tale of a stupid and damn poor girl...
this is the tale ...
the tale of satan...