PROOF OF LIFE & SOUNDLESS VOICE

another month pass by

and i still live the same life as usual

lately i came to realize

that I've locked myself in a shell for the past 3 months

i turned down almost every invitation from my friends

sorry to u guys

somehow i need to be alone for a while

i duno why

but it seems that im very tired after my work

lost my target of my life

and i needed a long rest

i went to bed early

i didn't sign in my msn for long like i always do

i didn't even bother to consult my friend for their problem anymore

maybe i was too tired of everything I'm goin through

some kind of blue i have for the past 3 months



but it's time

time for me to get hold of myself again

i looked into my photo album in my computer recently

i realize i missed my smile

so i tried to make myself happy

one of my colleague asked me

why don't you dress up like u used to be already?

i realize i've been living a dull life lately

so i need a change

i start to dress up

i laughed in my office a lot

making jokes with my boss and colleagues

doc said to me

that laughter is the best medicine

i guess he was right

at least i have a better day

my friend said that I'm a strong girl

that I'm tough to overcome what's happening to me

well I'm a human after all

i will fall and hurt myself also

after the pain and blood

i have to stand on my feet and start to walk again

it just a matter of time

and i guess it's time

time for me to start to get on my feet

and walk again

although i still confuse

where I'm goin in the future

but i will walk to a place i belong

a place where my dream will come true

a place where i can heal and mend my heart

well

life too short to be happy

so be happy while you could

(^_^)


actually i began to get hold of myself

after listen to 2 japanese songs

it's from vocaloid- proof of life and soundless voice

the song is about a girl who is sick

she knew she didn't have much time left

she knew she have to leave her boy soon

so she want to leave something for the boy who she love so much

as a proof of life

she want to see his smile

she want to sing for him

days go by

she didn't live to see the spring

in the winter

as everything of her life disappearing from her sight

the boy's smile still there

she want to sing a happy song with him

and wanted to say thank you to him

in the end

but she didn't get to hear

what the boy trying to say

the boy was crying to see her dead body under a tree

where they usually be

she didn't hear him even he shouted her name

she didn't feel anything anymore

she can't smile and laugh anymore

she can't even sing with him anymore

in the thick layer of snow

all he can do is holding her as she disappear

if wish could come true

then just once more he want to listen to her voice

if wish could come true

then take away his voice and gave it to her

the boy didn't have the chance to say he love her

what's left is the soundless voice



if you're interested in the song

just go youtube and type

vocaloid proof of life

or

vocaloid soundless voice

sure you'll find them dy

hehe...






so if u love someone

say it out

who knows what will happen the next minute

stay happy

and live your live to the fullness

(^_^)